COVID-19: Parent to Parent
Advice from parents like you!
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I don't have more than 100% to give.
"J" and "B" are two working parents who made two thoughtful decisions about whether to keep their child at home or return them to daycare.
I have always been known as an overachiever, a perfectionist. I have never been known to give less than 100% to anything I do.
Being a single mom is a full-time job in itself. Pre-pandemic, I had a sense of control. The time and space for work was separate from my personal life, which allowed me to compartmentalize. Then, in March, like many other parents across the nation, I suddenly found myself working from home full-time with a 5-year-old who could no longer attend school when her campus closed. My worlds collided, and I was left reeling, grasping for what little control I could retain.
By April, I felt like I was losing my mind. I couldn't focus. I was irritable. I was not performing at my best for either "job." When daycares opened again for children of essential workers, I lost sleep over weighing the pros and cons of sending my daughter back to a congregate setting. Keeping her home reduced her chances of infection, but it starved her of quality attention and the chance to build social skills by interacting with other children. I decided our mental health was just as important as our physical health and made the difficult decision to send her to daycare.
With that decision, we were able to regain some coveted normalcy. My relationship with my daughter improved because I was able to once again give her my undivided attention in the evenings. Some folks tried to make me feel guilty, but I felt confident that my decision was the right one for us. That confidence carried over into my decision to opt for in-person instruction when school resumed.
No matter how much I wanted to muster the superhuman strength needed to adequately manage work and home simultaneously – I learned that I don't have more than 100% to give. This revelation was both humbling and liberating. I learned to give myself the grace that I was so freely giving to others. And while a pandemic is a hard way to learn that lesson, I am truly grateful for it.
October marked the start of the 29th week of our pandemic parenting journey in which my husband and I, like many other parents, are juggling full-time jobs while caring for our son who just turned five and let me tell you…the juggle is real.
Our first challenge was establishing a routine. Something that sounds so easy, but between March and April it was anything but. Overnight the demands of our jobs increased, and our world felt like it was turned upside down. Though we now have established a routine that, for the most part, is working, we have found ourselves facing what we find to be an even tougher challenge – how do we make the decision to send our son back to daycare when we're still working remotely and practicing social distancing? This is a question we have been wrestling with for 25 weeks and there still does not seem to be a "best choice".
If we keep our son home he's missing out on practicing social skills, playing with his friends and since he's asthmatic, we're protecting him from unnecessary exposure; BUT we still can still see family and friends who are practicing social distancing without worry since our family is still social distancing as well.
If we send him to school he gets to continue learning, practicing social skills that are important for his development and he gets a consistent and normal routine back; BUT we can't see family and friends without worrying about if our son has been exposed to COVID-19. You have to make the choice that is best for your family and that you are comfortable with regardless of what other families are doing or how they feel about the difficult decision you've made.
During these unprecedented times there are no right or wrong choices to this tough question. We have friends who have made the decision to send their children to daycare, we've made the decision to keep our son home.
It's okay to not have it all together all the time.
"K" is a mom trying to balance parenting, working full time and educating her kindergartner with her second child on the way, all during the coronavirus outbreak.
We're now on day 34 of staying home. In case you are counting, that's four weeks and six days. Or 2,937,600 seconds of living and working at home with my family... with no break. We're fortunate – both my husband and I are still employed, but that also means both of us are trying to work full time jobs as if nothing has changed in our world while also raising a five-and-a-half-year-old whose school is also operating virtually each day (and also due with kiddo #2 in a few weeks!) Did I mention that kiddo #1 is having a growth spurt with big emotions happening… and hasn't played in person with another kid since this all started?
Not going to lie, trying to work full time, be responsible for educating a kindergartener, maintaining a home (because meals don't magically make themselves, and where are all these dishes coming from?!), and keeping the stress in check while pregnant, requires more hours in a day than what exists.
Each day, there's yet another email or social media post that gives me resources and links to amazing sites to help create the best schedule for our family or the latest ways to make sure my child doesn't fall behind in development. But what few of those resources recognize is that this isn't working remotely as normal life would be or that this isn't really homeschooling in any definition of the word. This is pure trying to keep up with work during a global pandemic. This is educating through a global crisis.
I'm lucky that my job requires understanding child development and public health response. So I know that when all of the COVID-19 crisis is behind us, we'll all be okay. It's okay that Netflix is helping me balance it all and keep our kiddo content while I'm on the umpteenth work call. It's okay that we don't have a color-coded calendar that is Pinterest worthy, my husband and child will survive. My focus is more on the social-emotional connection that is really needed now: are we spending meaningful time together as a family when we can? How are we as adults coping with stress and creating a space that makes our kiddo know that she is loved, safe, and secure? Are we taking care of ourselves that it doesn't get overwhelming?
This isn't the time to feel like you have to keep up with the Joneses or fall into the mom-shaming guilt trip because you aren't designed to be a homeschool teacher on top of it all--this is the time to focus on what matters, figure out what you need to get through this. When people tell you that this is the "new normal," it's okay to call shenanigans on that and remind yourself that this is living through a global health crisis that modern history has never known. This isn't normal. And it's okay to not have it all together all the time. Give yourself some grace, find time for yourself, reach out to others for support, and know that as with all things, this crisis will end.
Co-parenting is hard. And then the pandemic hit.
"M" is both a stepmom and mom-to-be, and she draws on her own history to navigate new and uncharted waters.
Co-parenting during normal times is hard. Having to work with a different household that has different rules, parenting philosophies, and ideas about childhood is never easy. Couple that with long-lasting emotional pain that can be caused by the break-up of a romantic relationship, even after several years, and working together to raise a child can seem nearly impossible. I grew up as a child of divorce and witnessed similar patterns when my older brother also went through the process of divorce and remarriage.
When I married my husband and joined him in parenting/co-parenting my then 7-year-old stepdaughter, "Alice" I knew what I was getting into. I knew that the co-parenting relationship could be difficult, and that being a step-mom meant a limited say in all sorts of parenting questions. What I did not anticipate is that four years later, a pandemic would require a complete reshuffling of the co-parenting relationship we had established with my stepdaughter's mom and stepdad.
Prior to the pandemic, we were following the standard Texas custody order almost to the letter. Now that "Alice" was 11, we were able to listen to her requests and make slight variations to the order that benefitted both families. Still, the relationship with "Alice's" mom and stepdad was sometimes strained. School and extra-curricular activities served as neutral spaces for pick-up and drop-off, even when it meant making special deliveries to school for forgotten gym bags or glasses. Arguments over school, extra-curricular activities, and discipline were frequent stressors and often led to major arguments.
When the pandemic hit, we lost those neutral spaces and had to look closely at the standard order for both families. To add to the stress, I was in my second trimester with a high-risk pregnancy and gestational diabetes, making me especially vulnerable to Covid-19 infection. It was clear that the constant back and forth of the standard custody order was not going to work for either family.
Here are a few of the difficult issues we've had to navigate due to the pandemic:
For the first few weeks of the pandemic, we were in constant communication with "Alice's" mom. We had previously found that texting was the easiest form of communication, allowing everyone to stay calmer and think through their communication before sending to the other party, and continued to communicate that way.
At the beginning of the pandemic, "Alice" was already spending spring break with her grandmother in a more rural Texas community. Since social distancing would be easier in that environment while still allowing her the ability to be outside and play, both families agreed that staying there for a few weeks would be the best plan. Once she returned, we switched to a schedule of a week or two with each family. If she or a family member started to feel sick, she would stay there until we had more information.
Remote schooling was also a real challenge for a co-parenting family. Often, teachers would only contact one parent and not the other about progress. Early on, confusion about assignments and online platforms led to disagreements about what to focus on and the importance of different assignments. Additionally, capacity to support "Alice" in her learning while working full-time jobs differed across families.
Thankfully, co-parenting an older child like "Alice" helped us empower here to take the lead with her school-work, we let her take the lead on telling us where she needed support to complete challenging or intimidating assignments. We also learned to get over resentments when work wasn't getting done at her other household, and just focus on helping her catch up when she was at our house.
Existing disagreements about discipline-style at each household have been magnified by the pandemic. "Alice" is spending a lot more time home with her parents and step-parents, and each of us have a different understanding of appropriate discipline and knowledge of child development. To help us all cope, we were able to find her an old phone that she can use to send messages or video-chat with us over wifi so we know what's happening on a day to day basis. She does the same with her mom when she's with us.
Now that things are re-opening, we have new challenges to address. For now, both families have agreed to continue social distancing and wearing masks out in public, at least until I am no longer in a high-risk group. Staying home when other children in the neighborhood are playing together is a challenge for "Alice" but we've allowed her to play with her cousins who are following the same procedures to stay safe and be ready for our family's new addition.
"Alice" will be starting middle school again in the fall and we don't yet know what that will look like or what full-time work will look like for each family. Flexibility will likely need to continue until a vaccine is available, and we will continue to work together the best we can to keep everyone safe and healthy.
Dealing with COVID-19 has motivated us to work together more to protect "Alice" and both of her families. We are far from perfect co-parenting partners but keeping the focus on getting "Alice" through this while protecting her physical, mental, and emotional health has helped both families work together better. Every co-parenting relationship is different though, and if you aren't in a place where either parent can be flexible or if one parent is an essential worker, what works for you will likely be very different.
The biggest advice I can offer is to find the venue of communication that works best for you, keep those lines of communication open, do your best to keep the focus on the well-being of your shared child, and try to be as flexible as possible. You're already doing the hard work of co-parenting, this is just one more challenge to work out.
I am grateful for the extra time.
"H" is a father of preteens and teens, while "E" is managing a toddler. Both of them are managing parenting through the pandemic with an appreciation for a new level of closeness with their kids.
As a noncustodial parent, parenting and working a full-time job already comes with its unique set of challenges. Parenting and working a full-time job during a pandemic is even more complicated.
During this time, my kids are with me 'for the summer.' Under normal circumstances, it would be effortless to plan an outdoor activity with them after hours as a way to get out as a family and to show appreciation for them being patient with me and my work. The COVID-19 pandemic has added another layer because we are having to think a lot about what we can do and where we can go while understanding how to remain safe.
It has been challenging to try to balance work/life and ensuring that their mental and emotional health is sound as we break from their traditional summer activities. Trust me; they are looking at the clock to ensure you're off when that time comes! Fathering during this pandemic has allowed us to be closer as a family, play more games, and do more activities that we love."
Parenting during COVID-19 stay-at-home conditions has been one of the most exhausting and rewarding experiences as a father. With my 2-year-old home after her day care went out of business due to COVID, managing her needs while teleworking myself has been a daily grueling gauntlet.
With all the hours of lost sleep have also come countless additional hours of getting to interact and play with my daughter, and watch her grow and develop. While our current circumstances are obviously anything but ideal or preferred, I am grateful for the extra time it has allowed for me to connect with and appreciate my daughter.
While many may ultimately remember this time primarily for the challenges and hardship it caused, I will also always remember it as when we got so much extra daddy-daughter time, and getting watch her grow daily before my eyes.